Dear Diary,

I’ve been overweight as long as I can remember and getting naked in front of people is really uncomfortable. Even at school in gym class I would change in bathroom stalls and not the locker room with the other girls. To this day I avoid mirrors in dressing rooms and bathrooms because I can’t bear to see my body I’ve grown to think is too ugly to look at.

At 29, I have only had two boyfriends and have never been intimate with anyone because of my issues with my body. Recently I found the guy of my dreams and I really want to let him get closer to me, but I can’t stand the thought of being naked in front of him if I can’t even face myself. The problem is, even when he puts his hand near my waist I get really nervous that it feels like a panic attack coming on. I really want to overcome this. It has affected my life too long and I worry it will affect my relationship as well.

I hesitated writing this because it’s such a sensitive subject i haven’t even told my best friend. I don’t want to be judged and I have found wonderful confidence through GWC in learning to love myself inside, but this last hurdle it a very hard one. I know it’s time I find the confidence I need to be proud of my body, while dressed or not. So I would love any help or advice the wonderful GWC audience can offer me.



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